Want to know the dark, downside of being a business owner? Especially in the early days, when it’s just you and a dedicated band of loyal friends who have more faith than common sense (love you guys…you know who you are). It all falls on you. As advertised, I am vending at Cairo Shimmy Quake this weekend. And boy do I not want to go. Scratch that. I want to go. The spirit is more than willing. The flesh, however, says that in this year of the plague, my cold logged, snot drenched, behind, should seriously spend the weekend in bed, resting.
But I can’t. I have committed to vending this event. I have committed to the 8 hour drive through Death Valley in a car with no air conditioning. I have committed to at least one 14 hour day (Saturday). And I do want to go. I enjoy vending. I enjoy meeting new people, and talking about silk. I like the surprise when I tell people all the things I do to silk. I like hearing about people’s projects and what they are making. I like guiding them to a good silk for their project.
But there is that downside. The side that says “I’m sick, I should be sleeping.” And that is the downside of company ownership. Yes, I’m sick. But I can’t take the weekend off to sleep it off. Because as the owner, good company representation ultimately falls on me. So I am packed. The hobo-mobile is ready to go. My helper bee knows what time to expect me tomorrow. Now to sleep as well as possible, and hope tomorrow brings better energy levels.